It was a hard week.
My co-worker committed suicide a few weeks back. We worked in different offices although he had called out for a week and I was taking his place.His death devastated us. Since then three of us have been taking different days and filling in until someone gets hired.
That office is a pit of despair with a little bit of Hell thrown in.
I have never worked in an office where the standard patient was so bitter and mean. Where patients walk in a few times a day to complain (no appointments, they just walk in to throw some vitriol and walk out). I worked in a pain clinic where people were just coming in to scam drugs off the doctors but that was nowhere as deeply horrible as this place.
There is no joy there. No laughter. My standard operating procedure is to chat with people and laugh but when I work there I just watch the clock and wait till I can leave. (I think the boss is hoping that I'll offer to take over the job but I'd rather lose a limb than go there daily.)
And then I come home, weary and discouraged and trembling with anger and run to social media and what happens? Trump. Republicans. Presidential candidates comparing penis size, comparing spousal attractiveness while running for the President of our damned country and I'm wondering if I can afford to move to Australia and live my remaining days as a hobbit with Lea.
Why are people so angry? What happened in America that we can accept these current Republicans as candidates? They're sickening little boys full of braggadocio and empty threats.
And if you're whispering "Hillary isn't that much better" you'll get no argument from me. I think she's a liar, wishy-washy and trying to come off as a moderate Republican to steal their votes while maintaining she's a progressive to try and steal Bernie's votes. She's the most politician out there and I don't mean that in a good way.
This week was so disheartening I ended up pulling up Star Trek: TNG on Netflix and I'm binge-watching the show. I can't abide the current so I'll try to live in that version of the future where hate doesn't dominate.