I love those moments of epiphany: the sudden 'hello, here's something you might want to do/try/think that will make your life better/happier/more functioning'.
So over the holidays I was fretting about my relationship with my sister and talked to my brother about it. And he warned me against doing something that would hurt our relationship and then I was told by my SIL why there were issues between my sister and I and I discovered that the reasons were bogus. Just completely ridiculous shit.
And I epiphanied. I epiphanied all over the damned place.
I realized that in my relationship with my sister I just need to have the relationship I want. If I want to be close to her then I need to be close to her. I can text or call anytime I want. I can email, Facebook her or even ignore her completely. It isn't about what she wants but rather how I decide to act.
She can't determine our relationship, she can only determine her relationship with me. As I determine mine with her. And if we don't see our sisterhood in the same way, who cares? Life is perception, not actuality.
I also want to mention that I read Land of the Beautiful Dead by R. Lee Smith (author of Last Hour of Gann) and I must say that although I read it in great big gulps, I didn't like the book at all. The heroine Lan was a tiresome bitch and the hero Azreal was a tiresome bore. But the writing is so good that I read the book despite wishing the H/h would fall into a volcano and die.
Will also mention that I painted two bookshelves and my desk is still a work in progress and I'll post pictures when it's all a little more pulled together. It's very messy right now.
And I want Willa to post pictures of her office. Purple and glitter is so my style.