Monday, January 18, 2016

Weekend Goals

It was a shit week. So I had a lot riding on having a nice weekend and I got to say: it was brilliant.

First came Saturday morning and #beachday

I went to Spencer beach, which was a new beach for me and now my new favorite. The parking is right next to the beach so no lugging stuff all over the place. There were rest rooms right there. It wasn't necessarily the prettiest beach but it was the most comfortable I've found.

I see many beach days in my future.

Then I came home and finished my desk.


I'd already painted it red and put the contact paper on it. But on Saturday I put on the drawer pulls (a little crookedly) and spray painted the leg black. The desk had been an industrial gray with cheap wood pieces poking through. This is so much better.

Goes nicely with the pretty blue bookcases I painted.

I got a shelf up in my closet so now I have much needed extra storage.

Last goal in the bedroom is to make my own headboard and make my own rag rug. Very exciting.

It's becoming so much more the room I love.

Tuesday, January 12, 2016

Maybe I'm Afraid

I haven't been writing, not really. I've painted furniture and done day trips with my daughter and even took a nap but opening up the Word program and writing well, not so much

Because I'm terrified of failing.

I thought that maybe I'm just being too ambitious and I should write something else. Maybe I should hide behind my own silliness and not do this. What happens if I write it and it's awful? What happens if this story that means so much to me is crap in everyone else's eyes?

What if I'm not good enough to write something ambitious?

What if I am?

What if?

I know it's all bullshit. You don't get to be an old fart and not know when you're blowing smoke up your own ass. So I'm scared of failing and writing a shitty book. I won't know until I do it. So I might as well do it.

Yesterday I finally sat down with my nano project and culled the good stuff which was pretty okay. I saved about 35,000 words and figure even out of that there's another 5 -10,000 which will need to be tossed but it's a solid beginning.

And today I started writing.

If Lea jumps in to fake nano with me, we'll have a finished 80,000 word book by the end of February. It might be the worst thing I'll ever write. It might be the best. But at least I'll have written it.

Terror is okay. As long as it doesn't get in the way of writing.

Wednesday, January 6, 2016

A Warning to the Blogging Community

Since DA and SBTBs seem to have gone out of the 'outing' business, I thought I'd share this for any blogger who happened by. I got the link from Ilona Andrews' blog.


Live Life Like You Want It To Be

I love those moments of epiphany: the sudden 'hello, here's something you might want to do/try/think that will make your life better/happier/more functioning'.

So over the holidays I was fretting about my relationship with my sister and talked to my brother about it. And he warned me against doing something that would hurt our relationship and then I was told by my SIL why there were issues between my sister and I and I discovered that the reasons were bogus. Just completely ridiculous shit.

And I epiphanied. I epiphanied all over the damned place.

I realized that in my relationship with my sister I just need to have the relationship I want. If I want to be close to her then I need to be close to her. I can text or call anytime I want. I can email, Facebook her or even ignore her completely. It isn't about what she wants but rather how I decide to act.

She can't determine our relationship, she can only determine her relationship with me. As I determine mine with her. And if we don't see our sisterhood in the same way, who cares? Life is perception, not actuality.

I also want to mention that I read Land of the Beautiful Dead by R. Lee Smith (author of Last Hour of Gann) and I must say that although I read it in great big gulps, I didn't like the book at all. The heroine Lan was a tiresome bitch and the hero Azreal was a tiresome bore. But the writing is so good that I read the book despite wishing the H/h would fall into a volcano and die.

Will also mention that I painted two bookshelves and my desk is still a work in progress and I'll post pictures when it's all a little more pulled together. It's very messy right now.

And I want Willa to post pictures of her office. Purple and glitter is so my style.

Thursday, December 31, 2015

Happy New Year's ... Resolutions

I do, do you?

New Year's resolutions are my siren song, my candy at the end of the year, my guilty pleasure. Anything that promises a new beginning whether a new year, a nano novel, a new job are all exciting. The chance to look at the past and decide what's worked, what hasn't and what you want to attempt going forward; these are the things that make my heart beat faster.

I'm not one of those 'lose 20 pounds' or 'eat healthy only' kind of resolutioners. It's not about lying to myself. I know I won't cut sweets out of my diet because cake is awesome and eating cake is the best. An occasional margarita fueled night makes me extremely happy. And I like a burger and the fries that come with it.

This year my resolutions are smaller in scale but very exciting to me. And there's only two.

My first is to turn my bedroom into a color filled haven of creativity. I want a room that makes me feel like I'm in a place where imagination is limitless. I know it's just a room and one can be creative in a hovel or a mud shack but there's something about having a space that is yours alone, unshared and made just to please you. And since I live in someone else's house and have no say about how furniture is arranged or what's put on the coffee table: I need my space.

I bought the furniture paint today.

Resolution number two is to rewrite my nano novel.

That's it.

I have other goals for the year, mostly involving my finances and getting them in a more manageable state as well as improving my cooking skills and getting my car taken of and such.... but those aren't resolutions.

I'd love to know if anyone else out there also does the resolution thing.

And more than anything:


Here's hoping that 2016 leaves more laughter than tears, more happiness than sadness and more dreams fulfilled.

Mazel tov.

Friday, December 25, 2015

And from us too.   :-)

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

Twas the Night

Twas the night before Christmas
and all through the blog
the ladies were giggling
tipsy on egg nog.

"Dig this cover," said Red
"with a hunk I'd kill to bed."
"Oh my," Lea sighed
"I'd like him buried tween my thighs."

Aztec shook her head
her mind on serious things
such as the rules and the rights
and the chance Trump might be kinged.

In Aloha garb, Lori did plan
a traditional feast of turkey and ham
and poi and and the fruits
of this tropical land.

The Kindles were charging
on the mantle with care
in the hopes that the wifi
would be clear in the air.

There were books to be read
and books to be writ
and plans for trilogies
and standalone titles which are really my preference because I'm tired of reading series.

Grace Draven, Lisa Kleypas
even Eloisa James
are some of the authors
we're hoping to name
for many more books
for many more years
that we can all enjoy
and we can all share
and we'll keep this blog
lit up through the night
so we can talk about books
and hot men who are a sight
and things that matter
both far and quite near
because being with all of you
fills us with cheer
so from two old farts
who talk romance
Happy Holidays to all
and to alla Bonne Chance.