Love at First Sight

I fell in love today.

I had a huge box of food I was sending to Mollie in Japan (she cannot get a decent bag of Cheetos) and at the post office I was helped by a woman whom I fell in love with. 

This isn't a joke. This isn't hyperbole. 

She was wonderful. Cute as hell. We started talking and it was like *soulmate* 😍. We talked about Japan, about moving to the mainland. We talked about getting our nails done and Korean skin care and K-Pop and Cheetos and we dragged the encounter on waaaaaay too long and when I left I thought I want to hug her and smooch her and damn, I fell in love.

And before y'all ask if I'm going to follow up ... I don't know. Very probably, most likely not. But I don't feel like I have to. Although I might. (See how messed up I am?) I would never follow up romantically, maybe invite her to lunch as a friend. I'll think about it.

Anyway, it was crazy. I've never walked away from an encounter like that feeling the way I felt.

Stroke?

 

If it looks like a stroke and droops like a stroke could it be a stroke?

Charlie Kirk - Political Violence

 

Charlie Kirk, a right wing commentator was shot and killed today while speaking at an event in Utah. If you don't know who Charlie Kirk is, well, you're that much better for it. He was a man who made a living arguing with college students about politics. (Okay, that's all I knew him for. He might have done more than that.)

Kirk was an odious man who supported MAGA, thought Trump was awesome and believed that our 2nd Amendment rights should be untouchable even as children are murdered in school. He was a 'thoughts and prayers' kind of guy. 

So these are my thoughts, and I offer no prayers:

If your world view is accepting of murdered children then don't expect tears when you die from gun violence. It's called Karma. You put ugliness and violence in the world and you get ugliness and violence back. 

The conservatives in America had a field day when Paul Pelosi was attacked in his home by a whacko with a hammer. The current president of the US and his disgusting child named after him, made remarks suggesting it was a sexual liaison gone wrong. You foster this environment and then claim the democrats are mean and violent.

Well, conservatives, these are your ducks coming home to roost. 

And if you're reading this and wondering if I'm dancing in the street over the death of Charlie Kirk: I'm not. I abhor violence. But I honestly don't give a fuck that Charlie Kirk was murdered. You don't get to fight on the side of gun violence and expect tears when you're the victim.

Fuck you. Rest in Hell. 

Tick Tock

 

My cat Kitara came home. (That's Kitara snuggling Wednesday). It was amazing since I thought Kitara was gone forever and then voila, all three cats are home and safe. Lovely moment.

So apparently on Twitter Trump Dead was trending. Mollie sent me a million memes and when I pointed out we had no proof he was dead she said, "I'm manifesting. Don't steal my joy". I raised her, I'm so proud.

Unfortunately Trump isn't dead but it doesn't look like he's doing well. Of course we've had other Republican presidents with dementia who continued to serve (Ronnie Reagan: remember?) and I doubt we'll see Trump out quickly but Word Salad Donald isn't going to be around forever.

Carolyn is still alive and says "hey y'all". Actually she said "who ate my ice cream?" but still in all, she said something.

My French lessons got too hard for me. I might switch over to Spanish since I already know some. I still want to learn a language but man, French got too hard too fast.

Carolyn's Auto Buy Authors

 Carolyn and I were talking about books the other day and she mentioned how prices (as always) keep going up and that she'll only purchase certain authors at a higher price point (we're talking $10.99 and over).

I asked her for her list of auto-buy authors and here it is:

Kelley Armstrong (highly agree)

Patricia Briggs

Anne Bishop (enjoyed The Others series)

C.S. Harris

Linda Castillo

Nalini Singh (altho she's given up on the archangel series)

Faith Hunter (sounds like an occupation more than a name)

Laura Griffin

Nora Roberts/JD Robb

Ilona Andrews (Carolyn would rob a bank for Ilona Andrews)

Daniel O'Malley (Dunno him at all)

Grace Draven (I'd rob a bank if she requested)

Kylie Scott

Kristen Callihan

P.J. Tracy

Lucy Parker

Changing My Life

 

I was writing the other night and what I was writing was hysterical. I mean I was laughing full out, loving my sense of humor and it hit me that my persona is Boss Bitch and funny but myself in actuality is soft girl. and soft girl doesn't exactly suit me anymore.

Anyway, fast forward and I'm talking to my brother who mentions that he and my sister are going on a trip in October together to visit our father. So I invited myself along. And told them that unless they had HUGE objections to deal with it. I'm tired of being left out. (Oh, and I made my brother buy my plane tickets). 

I know I can't go through life demanding things of other people but I can demand that I stop accepting situations that make me feel less. 

Anyway, had some upsets recently. My baby cat Kitara got out and is gone. It's been over a week so I'm assuming bad things. My apartment flooded which only caused the ruination of one pair of slippers but did create a space saving moment for my microwave cart so it turned out to be an annoying blessing in disguise.

Life Is So Good

 

I've had a few things going on in my life which have been difficult to discuss simply because it's personal and also it feels like a fine line to discuss it objectively. 

In less than two weeks I will be receiving an inheritance which will provide a financial cushion for the rest of my life. In the next couple of years that will grow to include an inheritance that will provide for Mollie and her offspring (cats, since she doesn't intend to have children) for the rest of her life. 

There's obviously a sense of relief and joy in knowing that a lifetime of struggle can finally cease. There's a little guilt in receiving a windfall when so many are struggling. And there's a responsibility to make choices that better the lives of those I love as well as my community. 

I've been estranged from my brother for the last year and a half and I reached out. I have a need to connect with someone who is sharing the same experience I am. I'm reluctant with regards to my brother because there are things he believes that I find abhorrent. But I need someone who is navigating the same financial waters that I am.

I realized in my persistence to learn French there's still a part of me that likes new information and new skills. I'm wondering if money is a skill I can learn. 

For the most part I've been navigating pretty well but with the change so close I'm losing my step a little. I'm craving snacks after eliminating snacking from my life. I would rather eat fast food than cook. That old eating disorder if peeking around the corner saying "how d'ya do?"

Still... life is good. At least that's what Hyunjin tells us in the video above. and I might as well believe Hyunjin because ... well, why not?