Monday, May 26, 2025

Monday Morning Meandering

 It's Monday morning and I just ate a slice of chocolate babka and I'm slowly drinking my morning coffee. We are having a Hilo Hawaii spring which means glorious days and rainy days. My cats are all calm right now, the morning is mellow.

I checked You Tube quickly to see what my news channels were talking about. This go-round with Trump has so much more circus attached that a lot of the headlines or "news" are just there for eye rolling and disgusted "tch" noises.

The thing with the Joker and his cronies is that there are terrifying things happening: especially with ICE and the general lawlessness of their deportations. Even with the courts telling them no, Americans are being kidnapped and deported.

Apparently they have a 'flood the news cycle' rule that's supposed to allow them to hide the heinous. It doesn't. Legacy media, for the most part, is easily distracted. But the new rise of social media news reporters, the You Tube channels (Meidas Touch, Brian Tyler Cohen, Belle of the Ranch) are putting out mass amounts of content and they aren't distracted. You just have to be concise with what you view so as an audience, you don't get burned out.

Brian (BTC) was asked about the stupid headlines on all these videos and he said he doesn't love them either but it's necessary for the views. Belle doesn't have the stupid headlines and she's my favorite channel. I love her calm demeanor, her ability to break information down and the fact that she's willing to communicate with people who disagree with her as long as they aren't stupid. Stupid brings out her sarcasm and she's just too smart to go head to head with.

Anyway, I need to shower, get garbage out and have therapy. I found myself last night wanting to write fiction but it just isn't easy anymore to commit to writing. I have a play, Ever Alice, that I'm working on but it keeps stopping because it's hard to write and I'm approaching the big scene and I don't know how it goes. 

I ordered a print off Etsy from an artist that I bought from once before. The print seems to be lost in the mail. It's not the seller's fault obviously but I paid for an item I haven't received. I want to let her know but is she responsible for any of that? I was thinking I might ask if I can repurchase it but at half price because that way we both lose a little (I lose more) (but it really isn't her fault).

Anyway, meandering thoughts of a Monday morning.

Thursday, May 22, 2025

Some Words That Are Helpful

 I release myself from versions of me that I created to survive.

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Everything I lose creates space for everything I need.

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You are not too old and it's not too late.

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Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice.

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Don't be afraid to start all over again. You may like your new story better.

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I don't want to be around people I had to heal from.

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Trauma doesn't make people stronger. It damages their nervous system. It hijacks their digestive tract. It keeps the person in a constant loop of hypervigilance. To tell someone they are stronger because of trauma is to deny what it has cost them.