Goddamn. 

That's the post right there. Every day is a day that ends in Goddamn. Nothing is making sense. Politics is like ... like having humanoids in government. They look like us but they don't act like us. 

Carolyn and I watch news videos throughout the day and we share and discuss them and we rarely can anymore. It's impossible to understand what's happening and the pure idiocy is astonishing. The only people who are making sense currently seem to be Bernie Sanders ... and? Is there anyone else? Jasmine Crockett maybe?

Anyway, I'm personally careening between anxiety one minute and exhaustion the next. I'm purging my home in a rather big way. I don't even know why. 

Less than two weeks for the big family trip. Working on tips and tricks to get through it.

Fall is Falling

 

Well hello Fall.

I'm going on a family trip in a couple of weeks and I already booked a therapy session for the middle of it (hahaha!) This is one of those things that can go in a million different directions so I need to keep boundaries high and expectations low.

I have a new therapist, someone local so we can meet in an office. She asked me to tell her about my mother and I started telling stories about my mother from my childhood and ... it was shocking. I knew she was bad but sitting and just starting at point A and then going through, one after the other, she was just as damaging as a sexual predator father. 

I'm still dealing with the revelations of my mother's actions. It was just overwhelming to see for myself.

From now until I leave on my trip, I plan to just go down my to-do list and get everything checked off. I want to come home to a clean slate.

The Post Office cutie and I are a not-happening deal. We exchanged some short text messages but she doesn't have time for a coffee and that's okay. We are all living our lives as best we can. I'm glad I had that experience of meeting and falling for her.