Goddamn. 

That's the post right there. Every day is a day that ends in Goddamn. Nothing is making sense. Politics is like ... like having humanoids in government. They look like us but they don't act like us. 

Carolyn and I watch news videos throughout the day and we share and discuss them and we rarely can anymore. It's impossible to understand what's happening and the pure idiocy is astonishing. The only people who are making sense currently seem to be Bernie Sanders ... and? Is there anyone else? Jasmine Crockett maybe?

Anyway, I'm personally careening between anxiety one minute and exhaustion the next. I'm purging my home in a rather big way. I don't even know why. 

Less than two weeks for the big family trip. Working on tips and tricks to get through it.

Fall is Falling

 

Well hello Fall.

I'm going on a family trip in a couple of weeks and I already booked a therapy session for the middle of it (hahaha!) This is one of those things that can go in a million different directions so I need to keep boundaries high and expectations low.

I have a new therapist, someone local so we can meet in an office. She asked me to tell her about my mother and I started telling stories about my mother from my childhood and ... it was shocking. I knew she was bad but sitting and just starting at point A and then going through, one after the other, she was just as damaging as a sexual predator father. 

I'm still dealing with the revelations of my mother's actions. It was just overwhelming to see for myself.

From now until I leave on my trip, I plan to just go down my to-do list and get everything checked off. I want to come home to a clean slate.

The Post Office cutie and I are a not-happening deal. We exchanged some short text messages but she doesn't have time for a coffee and that's okay. We are all living our lives as best we can. I'm glad I had that experience of meeting and falling for her.

Happy Birthday to Me

 

Happy Birthday dear Lori ~~

67 turns around the sun and every one of them I can feel in my knees. Ha.

I'm being spoiled like crazy this birthday and I appreciate it greatly. I will be spending my birthday weekend setting up my bedroom to make it ready for anyone who wants to come visit. Also, we shall be going very, very pink.

There will be pictures.

I'm reading a wonderfully dirty book and loving it. 

Life is goodly.

Dis and Dat

 

AZTEC LADY

Aztec Lady did a blog post about disabilities and society and there's a link so please give it a gander. She's much more erudite than I could ever be and it's really a worthwhile read.

I met a new counselor/therapist yesterday and she was the right one. I had met one the week prior who was not right but yesterday's was a good fit. Of course I knew she would be the moment I entered her waiting area and saw the myriad of colors decorating her space. And the office itself was a lavender/purple dream with florals and clouds and comfort. 

My post office cutie and I are still texting. She has a much busier schedule than I but I'm looking forward to seeing her again. 

My birthday is a week from tomorrow and I've decided to order a cake. I'll share it with the neighbors (maybe) but damn, my favorite thing about birthdays is the cake. So fuck it, I want cake.

The hard thing about birthdays when you get older is that you're supposed to be too old to care about birthdays but I'm not. I'm happy because my daughter has sent me a gift from Japan and as long as I have cake and one gift then I'm happy.

Carolyn is still on this earth and sending me the pictures that are decorating the blog posts. We were on the phone today and I was like "ok, time to go" after some conversation and then we talked another 40 minutes so... 

Life is life-ing. I got a bed desk and it's one of the best purchases I ever made. Oh, and Mollie is planning a solo trip to South Korea in November to go the theater and eat Korean street food.

Love at First Sight (Part 2)

 

So Tuesdays is my laundry day and I got all my stuff together for the laundromat and realized I didn't have my wallet. I looked everywhere and nope, it was gone. However, I knew I had it yesterday at the Post Office ...

Because I had 😍with the young lady yesterday and fate was throwing me back into her world today I decided to shoot my shot and I grabbed one of my favorite skin cleansers (I buy extras when the price is lower) and I wrote a card saying how much I enjoyed meeting her ...

and I went back to the post office where in fact, I did leave my wallet and I saw my girl again and I gave her the card and gift and I got my laundry done and if she calls or texts then there will be a part 3...

Love at First Sight

I fell in love today.

I had a huge box of food I was sending to Mollie in Japan (she cannot get a decent bag of Cheetos) and at the post office I was helped by a woman whom I fell in love with. 

This isn't a joke. This isn't hyperbole. 

She was wonderful. Cute as hell. We started talking and it was like *soulmate* 😍. We talked about Japan, about moving to the mainland. We talked about getting our nails done and Korean skin care and K-Pop and Cheetos and we dragged the encounter on waaaaaay too long and when I left I thought I want to hug her and smooch her and damn, I fell in love.

And before y'all ask if I'm going to follow up ... I don't know. Very probably, most likely not. But I don't feel like I have to. Although I might. (See how messed up I am?) I would never follow up romantically, maybe invite her to lunch as a friend. I'll think about it.

Anyway, it was crazy. I've never walked away from an encounter like that feeling the way I felt.

Stroke?

 

If it looks like a stroke and droops like a stroke could it be a stroke?